New Year's Resolutions!

Me on New Year's Eve!

I apologize for the terrible quality of my Macbook camera. I'm a poor college student.

My makeup looked rather good, not that you can even tell here.

Happy New Year! I'm a few days late with this post, oops, but it had to be done. Personally, I'm not big on making resolutions. I never stick to them, so it's kind of pointless. But this year, I do want to make some, but I'd rather not call them "resolutions." I prefer to call them "lifestyle changes" because it isn't just something I want to do for this year, I want to continue this for the rest of my life as best I can.

Happiness. I think this is everyone's main goal. Who doesn't want to be happy? Hopefully all of my lifestyle changes will lead to a better mental health. I feel like they're all kind of tied together. For instance, I want to eat healthier and be more active. Not only would I like to lose weight and change my body, but I am so out of shape. I can't even do a few flights of stairs without getting winded (but I'm not completely sure how much of that is my lack of stamina or my asthma). I also get sick quite often and I don't always feel my best physically. With a better diet and more activity, I'm hoping this will change.

I want to get out more and be more social. I am not the most social or outgoing person. I can be, but for the most part, I'd rather sit at home and watch TV or read a book. But I am human, and humans have social needs and mine aren't always met. I think this will also help with the happiness goal as long as I surround myself with people who make me happy. That has honestly never been a problem, though. As soon as a friendship stops making me feel good, I end it. Life is too short to waste time on people who don't make you feel good.

This year, and the following year if it takes me that long, I'd like to get a better idea of what I want to do with my life. I always thought I was going to become a veterinarian. Now, I'm not so sure. I recently got into acting, and I love it. I've always thought I would love it, and I was right. It's a tough field, just like veterinary medicine, but in a much different way. I'm ambitious and persistent, though, and I can get anything done I set my mind to. It's just a matter of figuring out if I'd be happy doing that until I'm ready to retire. I'm indecisive and not the best at commitments, so this is a scary thing to figure out. I want to make sure I'm making the right choice.

Self-acceptance is also another thing I am working on. As a child, I was bullied relentlessly for about seven years straight. It certainly got to me and I haven't been the same self-esteem wise since, like most girls who go through the same thing. But I realize, that is ridiculous! Especially since now, if someone were to "bully" me, I wouldn't care. So why am I holding on to the bad feelings I used to have? It's confusing and stupid, I know. But I'm working on it. And if any of you reading this blog feel the same way, I hope you're able to work on it, too. We should love ourselves regardless of what anyone says.

I think that's about it! What are your resolutions for this year and what would you like to work on that will hopefully stay with you for life?